Wednesday, 12 October 2011
As I woke up from my nap this afternoon, I realised I had one other thing in common with these mythical monsters. I live my life at odd times of the day.
Vampires tend to be awake all night, so Bram Stoker tells us (and if you can't trust someone who made a career out of writing about things like blood-sucking monsters and women who turned into giant worms, who can you trust?)
I don't stay awake all night, but I don't stay awake all day the way most people do either. Instead, I have mornings awake, and I have late afternoon/evening awake. That period of time from lunch to afternoon tea I'm asleep.
I would have fitted in very well in cultures which have a siesta in the hottest part of the day (if they still do that.) But when everyone around me gets up in the morning and stays up until they go to bed at night - I feel a bit left out of some things.
Sometimes, I've stayed awake right through nap time. Sometimes it's because I've stubbornly insisted that I was going to do things the way "normal" people do. Sometimes, it's because the weather's been too hot for me to get to sleep. What happens then, apart from the obvious fatigue, is that my pain has increased. For me, pain and fatigue go together. One always makes the other worse.
So if I want to stay out of pain, (and being out of pain is one of my favourite treats), I "opt out" of a couple of hours of every day. I live strange hours, but it works for me.